Thank you Facet. I think you told me what deep done I know, but needed to be told by someone else.
I think you are right, I should accept my mind works differently and I need to learn to work with it. That was a good way of looking at it and really helpful.
I stopped taking ads because I felt like I was getting better and because I can have a laugh sometimes. Didn't feel like I should waste peoples time, I should be okay, there is no reason for this, urgh, I hate this phrase, but as though I should "pull myself together". Now I feel low again, were sometimes I feel so horribly down and self destructive. But then I do get some moments where I am smiley and laughing(mainly at work because I worked hard for it, don't want to mess it up and it can make me happy and it's also a big distraction). I think the evenings and mornings are when I'm low more and stressed.
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