Sorry to bring this thread up again but it's literally just getting worse and worse- I am blowing all my chances with her. I ache, physically ache, when she leaves me alone and it makes me a horrible person. Sometimes it makes me literally suicidal. I feel like i'm breaking up inside. I ended up in A&E on my birthday because of this inability to just cope like an adult... it is making me hate myself and I just don't know what to do.
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