Thanks for all the replies and support. I'm going to try to write out a letter to her today and see how that goes... it's just so hard.... I couldn't even go a full 3 days without weighing myself, and when I DID finally weigh myself yesterday I had gained 6 pounds. I knew I would have gained some, I just didn't expect it to be THAT much. And now I've been freaked out, checking my weight even more often, pushing myself to run and work out even more.... and I know that's not gonna be healthy in the end, but it just seemed like SO much in such a short amount of time. I would have ended up hurting myself pretty badly over it last night, had my kitten not been so demanding of cuddling and being given attention. It just really scares me how upset I got, how strong the urge to hurt myself was just because of that... I just didn't expect the scale to say that high of a number, I mean I knew I would have gained some most likely, but my clothes aren't fitting any tighter or anything, so I didn't think there'd be more than a few pounds difference. :(
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