Hey there my beautiful lil sis, thanks for sending me the link to this as you know I've not logged on in here for a while now. Anyhoo, I'm glad that you're reaching out for help and support here where you'll find people who really do understand, and I know it can be easier sometimes to be open with people who a relative strangers and who we don't have to face, but for people to give appropriate advice, some may need to PM you to get to know your situation a little better.
If I was healthy then I'd come to where you are, help you set up a home of your own, get you a support worker back and kick the GP's arse!! Well stick a crutch up his bottom at least! Yeah therapy/councelling definately makes you worse before it gets better, but they can't leave you like this, so they need to find you some sort of residential programme. Easier said than done to get this all sorted when sufferring agrophobia and anxiety and lacking the motivation to even try and get it sorted, but it would be better than lots of outpatient appointments. I just don't know what is available where you are, how much is funded by the NHS and I know that you don't have close support to help you organise it all, which is why I firmly believe you need a social worker or something again to deal with all of that for you and look into things.
As for everyone giving up on you, I haven't and I never will! I am determind to tap dance on braodway at the age of 86 and you are going to be there to give me a standing ovation, ok?! You are a beautiful person inside and out who has been through more than anyone person ever should, but it is those of us who suffer, who are destined for great things. Don't let life beat you, be a survivor and show life how you can take what you want from it.
I love you! *sister snuggles*
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