Thanks everyone.
The Crisis team are coming round today so I guess I will ask them if they can send someone round whilst I'm out at least one of the days. I can take him with me the other day if I have to.
I just wish I lived nearer, so I would be able to still see my boyfriend and my friends. At the moment because I'm at my dads I'm an hour away from any other family or friends so they can't really come round to keep me company very easily. And obviously I can't stay here forever because I have my own life, but its not like I could live at home and just nip round and see him every day, especially as I'd have to deal with Uni as well.
But it was my dads choice to move away.
I'm worried about what will happen to my little brother too. My dad isn't his biological father, but is the only father he has ever known, and his only carer. He is at my nans at the moment, but goes back to school soon so he will have to be here, which means that I'll have to stay even longer in order to take care of him too. I don't mind, but it means I won't see my boyfriend for a while and I'm scared he'll lose patience with me and my family. If I lived nearer then my brother and dad could live with me and my boyfriend, and my brother could still go to school, but its just not an option because I live too far away.
It just feels like an impossible balancing act. Because I'm trying to find time to look after my dad, see my brothers, visit my nan, and spend time with my boyfriend. As well as finish my degree. My poor friends barely even get a look in, but I miss them so much.
I kind of blame myself for my dad being like this, because I hadn't seen him in a while. But its always me that makes the effort to drive or get the train to see my family, none of them ever visit me.
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