First thing good job on going to your therapist. And getting your eating on track is a very amazing thing. *huge hugs and proudness*
To get better you kind of have to take the good with the 'bad', yes you will gain a little weight, but in no way are you going to get 'fat' because they will teach you how to eat properly and maintain and healthy weight. And about all the thoughts, it may help if you right them down and organize your head in a way. Talking to them about it can only help, they wont think any worse of you, they will be proud that you talked to them about it.
She obviously cares about how your doing, and I think that is great, because now you know you'll always a have a support system. She sounds amazing sweetheart and you should take full advantage of the help she is trying to give you. She isn't going to force you into hospital unless you get worse, if you are so against going into hospital you can use that as a tool to motivate you to get better. You have to tell her everything or else she isn't going to be able to help you as much as she could, and again if your not getting worse and making progress there would be no reason to put you in hospital.
I'm here if you need anything, good luck xx
Paige <33
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