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talking to therapist
So I saw my therapist today, and on Monday she wants to talk some more about creating an action plan of steps to take to improve my eating.
The thing is, I'm afraid to talk to her about this more, there's just SO much racing through my mind I don't know where to start. And I'm not sure if I want to improve my eating any more... I mean I do, but at the same time I'm really worried about how much weight it'll cause me to gain.
How do you figure out where to start with telling them stuff? I trust her, she's pretty cool... she even said that after I went away with the military, if I ended up back in this area, even if just for a few weeks at a time, she'd love to see me and she wants me to call her occassionally if I can while I'm away and update her on how stuff is going... which shocked me when she said that, but it was nice at the same time too. No one has ever actually WANTED me around, wanted to work with me, or given a **** about how things were going with me before... and she seems like she REALLY understands most things I tell her... the problem is I just don't know how to tell her everything, what to start with... it's just really overwhelming. And even though she's promised that she won't hospitalize me as long as I continue to work with her and be open with her, that's still a big fear of mine, I'm afraid if I do tell her EVERYTHING, she'll force me into the hospital anyway, despite what she promised today.
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