Hey,
I agree with the above - if your anti-psychotics are helping, it seems daft to me to come off them! Discuss it with your psychiatrist. If you're happy to keep on it, then that's a really positive thing as a lot of people aren't, come off them, and get really ill again.
I just want to say that I can totally relate about how being in hospital etc and realising just how ill you have been, can be very unsettling. I still think about my time in hospital a lot. It was obviously a very difficult time for you, and I think it's only natural that it takes time to come to terms with being so unwell. That's completely normal. In terms of feeling useless, I can relate to this too. The best thing I can advise is that you get involved in things again. Slowly at first, but joining a club, doing some exercise, making friends or meeting up with old ones will give your mental health a massive boost and will make you feel more valued. What's helped me most is returning to work (part-time doing a very non-stressful job), starting exercising again, making the effort to meet up with friends and getting a puppy. That sounds like a lot, and now that I've written it down it really shocks me that I've managed all that, but it was all done very gradually. Even if you did a fraction of that I'm sure it would make you feel better about yourself.
I really hope this helps. Take care.
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