I think you should have another go at getting help; it can be a really frustrating process and I know that I have often felt that all the hassle means it's not worth it. Unfortunately, as with any profession, there will be people who don't really seem to be very good at their job. However, there are lots of doctors, nurses, therapists etc out there who do care about the people they work with and if you can finding the right person to help you really is priceless.
It sounds like you have a lot of different things going on in your life, and if you're about to start a new career teaching, this might be a really good time to try and sort through some of those things and get your around everything that's going on in your life.
Seeking help is never easy, therapy is never easy, but I think that it is always worth giving it a go. Your family may not believe in talking about their problems with other people, but these kinds of problems don't always go away on their own and you sound as though you have been struggling with things for a while. Keeping everything to yourself and having that burden with you all of the time must be very tiring, and I imagine that it might get lonely at times. There is absolutely nothing wrong with asking for help when you need it. You say you have lots of good things going for you at the moment - there is no reason why this would change if you went to ask for help, and it might also help you to figure out the parts of your life which are not quite what you want them to be right now.
Good luck
xxx
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