Yes - try and see a new therapist. I'm not sure if you live in the US or UK or somewhere else, but if it's the US I believe you can look around and find a therapist you trust and can work well with.
I understand your frustration and confusion about whether you have the right diagnosis. The nurse should have talked you through Bipolar Disorder and answered any questions you had rather than just giving you a book. If you're not sure you have the right diagnosis, you have the right to ask for a second opinion. Mental health is not an exact science and misdiagnoses are often made. Sometimes people don't fit into a particular label because as humans we are complex. Ideally you should be treated for the symptoms/difficulties you experience rather than the label.
You can certainly teach with stabilised Bipolar Disorder - no diagnosis should exclude you from living the life you want to, as long as your well enough to teach and it doesn't affect your students or you negatively. Many people with all sorts of different illnesses do all sorts of different jobs.
Don't stop taking the medication without professional advice; you're right that it might be helping hold things together at the moment. And the best course of action, in my experience, is a combination of medication, therapy, and a practical week-to-week plan.
It takes time to trust people, especially if you've had experiences in your life that have hurt your trust in people. So don't worry if it takes time for you to be able to open up in therapy.
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