If i'm honest when i really think about it it does bother me. It's just that i spend most of my time in that state of mind and while i'm like that i rarely even notice my behaviour. But when i actually think about it i know that there's something not quite right. By childish i don't mean like immature or whatever [just to clarify] i mean like acting like a 3 year old- feeding my teddies, licking people that kind of thing. i do try to refrain from being like that in public but sometimes i can't stop it. It's like compulsive behaviours.
Other people do notice. And they think it's because things have been bad with depression. It's sort of hard to explain. But i definitely think it's something i do subconsciously to feel safe. Because i felt safe and happy when i was little. i think that even more than feeling safe it's an escape from all of this.
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