Try to find at least one reason to live. All you need is one reason to get going. I know this sounds dumb, but, things will get better. Life isn't bad all the time. You can survive. You can make it through this. You can find reasons to keep going - you can work through everything you're going through and feel better.
I know it's hard to talk to people....but you need to talk to someone - tell them what's going on - if you keep bottling it up it'll just get worse. I know how hard that is - it's hard for me to talk about stuff too - but if you find the right person - the right therapist for example, things get a little easier to talk about.
Anyway.. my main point is just that you need only one reason to keep living: whether it's your fiancee, seeing the sun again, writing, drawing, music, a friend...anything whatsoever. Also some creative outlets might help you work through things too - like writing or drawing or painting...might help you get your mind off things, give yourself time to relax, etc.
I know you can make it through this. Just keep trying - keep surviving.
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