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Ive just recently got a job. i havent worked for ages and have took 5 years to finished my degree but returning to work seemed the next logical step, cpn and therapist all said it was a good idead, but it feels like a disaster.

They said that they would support me, but they arent, this is more than i have taken on for ages and they have all pissed off, and im very annoyed. part of me enjoys working but i cant cope with it, im exhausted, i spend most of the day at work on the verge of tears, high urges to self harm, i dont know what to do.

keep leaving messages for cpn to ring bac so i can make appointment but she still hasnt.

i dont know what to do, im going backwards so fast and theres no one.
i only made progress under no stress, now at a job 30 hrs a week on a busy high street store at xmas turns me into a complete wreck and i havent got anyone to talk to.

the idea of having to go to work tomorrow terrifies me.

what do i do?