[Cazki]

Thanks thats really kind of you. I am so selfish honestly i am. I mean here i am talking about killing myself and im still here what does that make me. The answer is it makes me selfish really selfish i mean im just thinking of myself. I keep saying but it i know but i wanna die and i hope that day is soon. I cant be here much longer. Please i dont want to be here much longer. I know people are going to diasagree with me here but thats fair enough. Im so fed up with feeling like this maybe i should leave for good. Or maybe i should just support other people and not bother about myself. I mean its only me we are talking about. I think i might do one of those things i just mentioned. Whats the point in bothering about me anyway? I mean i know other people are bothered about me but maybe its time i wasnt and concentrated on other people. Im in a really crap mood i give up and iv fucking had enough i really have. Oh for fuck sake im so pissed off. I just wish i was fuckiing dead! for fuck sake!