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27-11-2010, 05:04 PM

#35346

*Ashes*to*Ashes*

Just for now.

Join Date: Oct 2010

Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry

I am currently:

Thanks...

The following content has been hidden - Reason : Sui-trig and possibly excessive bitching.

Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go.
No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload.
System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.

27-11-2010, 05:04 PM	#35346
AshestoAshes Just for now. Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry I am currently:	Thanks... The following content has been hidden - Reason : Sui-trig and possibly excessive bitching. All I've been able to think about for the last couple days is how best to off myself. It really scares me. I'm sure it scares my boyfriend and my "brother" too (since they're the only ones I've told). I'm seeing a counselor, and I can talk to her but... I have commitments and I can't go into the hospital (like I probably should) right now. I've already dropped out of psychology, and I think I'm going to fail English, which I need to graduate. I feel like it's so pointless. I can't see myself past graduation like I could before... I don't even know if I'm GOING to graduate at this point... I feel like I'm just not going to live that much longer and that that's better. And on the home front I've got my emotionally abusive brother coming home for Christmas. My parents didn't even ask me how I might feel about that and they just decided that it was okay for him to come home for the holiday. I was actually kinda looking forward to Christmas until I heard that... Now I don't even want to be home for it. I have SO much trouble getting out of bed in the morning, I can hardly get to school at all. I feel like my life is falling apart and there's nothing I can do. I just have to stand here and watch everything around me go up in smoke... And it makes me want to die...
	Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low. On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control. There's no way out.