[Kee]

i gave up with getting back to sleep. i'm so tired. i dont know how im going to get through today with my parents realizing that im not ok :S. we're having a famly meal tonight. i cant face it. its one of them dine in deals. really rich calorific m and s foods. my parents chose it all, i cant even choose a safe option. i have no ideas how many calories are in any of it. if i knew i could at least prepare myself for it :S you know what i mean. i feel so helpless right now :S