I was like this a year and a half ago. I was a complete mess. My boyfriend stuck around and helped me though. It cost him a lot (friendships, the sick bond he had with his mum, a year at uni, and so on), but he truly loves me. And yeah, sometimes he hits me but apparently that's because I told him I scream because I love him. With any other man, I wouldn't scream no matter how much I seem to idolise them.
By making me scream, he makes sure he knows every single one of my alters love him no matter how hard they can make his life to be. I know it's wrong, he knows it's wrong, and we're trying to work on it.
You will get my fear when you rape me. But I think your ex girlfriend (and you) confuses fear with respect. It's not due to fear that anyone would love one another. It's due to love. And when the love's not there, the respect will not get there either.
No-one would stay in a relationship like the one you had. I'm sorry your ex-girlfriend is acting the way she is. I think you should ask yourself if you really love this girl and if you want to spend your life with her. Because no matter how screwed up I used to be, my boyfriend always saw my true potential as a girlfriend, a wife and eventually a mother. So he stood by me. And as I said, we're working on our issues.
So the decision's yours. Are you enough a fool / in love / mad / all three of those to take a shot at trying to fix her? Or are you missing the chance of true potential? If you think this relationship wouldn't have worked out anyway, then I think she's not worth the effort (well, she always is, but maybe not for you to make.) If you think she's the love of your life, then do as I told you, and think. Are you willing to make sacrifices in order to be able to love this woman for the rest of your life?
It's up to you.
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