[The masquerade]

Nine months ago my current boyfriend asked me out. Ten months ago I found out he was a cutter. They day we started dating he promised me he'd stop. He swore he wouldn't do it again because that's how much he loved me. He's kept his promise. Two months ago he found out I was a cutter. He was very unhappy with me but more so he was scared for me and was there for me. I told him I'd stop and I did for about a month. Now it's all happening again, it's almost every night. I can't tell him because I don't want to break him but I can't stop. I can't tell him Ive been suicidal; looking for ways to kill myself everywhere I go. I can't hurt him like that.