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Old 05-09-2007, 04:29 PM   #47
bleedingdragon
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: back in the World alive
I am currently:

"Triggering suicidal self injury"




















Ive gotta get over this **** i have to i cant let it keep controling me

i cant keep going through this stuff its killing me inside i wish it would iether completly destroy me .............or get me to start getting over this
and heal....................please

the burden is too great .........its too much **** inside i want to release it
but i cant get it out of me.................im scared now if i see the psychologist they will turn me away i cant bare the thought they might
say im not ready for their help......................ive got to get past this crap.................its pulling me apart inside its so strong i want it to
destroy me or let me live with it please..........please let me
get over this .................whay why why did i have to go through this terrible
stuff i knoww i have to come to terms with it in order to move on

but i dont know how

yet i couldnt carry on with the nurse knowing i was getting no where....... i want to see the psychologist but im scared now

help me ...............please you ex and bully have hurt me so much inside that i as yet cant get rid of it stop tormenting me
how can i live with this horror inside me .......................................
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh h
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

can i really do this i dont want the psychologist saying im still not ready for them....................................you cant do that i hope you dont do that.

i want this nightmare to end or lessen its grip onm me
i fear it destroying any future life i want with others until i get past it or learn to live with it im imprisoned by it im in a walking prison like a zombie
only im aware of whats going on but i cant escape it

i cant deal with this crap its to strong ive got to get rid of it or dilute it

arhhhh i wanna explode........................................... .................




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