"You don't Feel what I feel
You don't see what I see
You can't help me"
I feel like I'm living by this quote at the moment.
No one can hear what I hear constantly, every second of every day. No breaks. No peace.
Constant chatter.
Constant critism.
Constant crying screaming laughing talking shouting.
constant constant constant
I feel like my head will explode one day.
I ask nicely 'please be quiet'
I demand 'I need you to be quiet'
I get angry 'shut up!'
no peace. no rest.
No one sees the things I see.
Messages written on walls.
men in dark coats.
Shadows lurking.
No one watches time go by like me.
back and forth and back again.
Speeding up, slowing down, standing still - disappearing completely.
I lose time. Seconds, minutes, hours, days.
Poof! gone.
No one can help me
There aren't pills that make this go away
there isn't a magic wand or formula
You don't grow out of it
This is my life and I'm stuck with it.