Yes, I have. I think that's a very common thing with self injury. Those horrible urges suck so much energy into you that they're hard to ignore and therefore you give more of an effort to get rid of them. But a little urge isn't as much of a fight so you sort of go through with it.
You shouldn't feel guilty. When I was in recovery I felt awfully guilty after a relapse but you know, you got to start somewhere. You can't have any expectations. You just got to thank yourself for what you have done and continue trying.
I also can understand your concern with getting out of control, but urges happen, relapses happen. You seem to have a good awareness on how strong the urge was and why you gave in. Recovery takes practice. Don't beat yourself up. They say relapse is recovery. Just try not to dwel on what you did wrong, and congratulate on your consistency. :)
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