Thank you for your support. I went home at 5pm and managed to get a call from the work counsellors (they have a telephone counselling thing) while I was still in the office. They pulled me back down to ground level, but I'd already given in to self harm. There were far too many things on my desk to use! I think I may have to start putting the particular items in a lockable drawer.
Tonight I felt okay but then just now tried to go to bed and started having panic moments. I've been changed meds recently so I'm thinking that might be the cause, as there was not external trigger for any of this.
Work know all about my issues and, to be honest, they've been really supportive, but my meds and my mental issues have led me to have a large amount of time off so they are in a difficult position. It sucks for me, especially now, but I don't blame them for it.
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