it is tiring and exhausting to feel this way. I'm sorry i'm a bit late with a reply but maybe you have already gotten a gp and an appointment????? I hope you will if you haven't already because there is help out there. You know, i have schizophrenia and they have managed to help me alot so there's definetely hope for most of us nutters
I think someone to talk to who won't jugde and someone who will listen to every problem, big and small, will help you immensely. Someone who isn't personally involved is often very good at offering helpful advice and suggestions.
And you shouldn't go around and feel so bad when there is help to be had. And sometimes it's easier to talk to a therapist than to your boyfirend or your best friend or your mum or whatever.
And again, you may weigh a few pounds too much, but hey, at least you're not me, lol
And i stand by what i said, i think you look good!!!!!