I think the best way to show you're sorry is to change what you do - and you're determined to do that which is a great first step. It won't be quick, but that will give you chance to work at bit on who you are as an individual before being part of a couple again.
Reflecting is also a good start! And recognising where you've messed up in the past. Try not to let it become the focus, though, the past is only relevant in order to make improvements for the future. A counsellor could be a good help in making the reflection positive and productive - are you in the UK? Your Dr can probably refer you, or there may be non-profits in your area who can help? Also, Narcotics Anonymous, for the suport of people who've made, and are making, the same journey?
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