You need to try to come to your own conclusion about it in your own time. Punishing yourself doesnt make things right. It doesnt make up for whatever you've done that you think you should be punished for. And if it hurts other ppl then that just makes you feel worse. It's a vicious cycle. I think you should forgive yourself for whatever you think you've done that's bad. Forgiveness is highly underrated and it helps you move forward (which you deserve to do). You'll be better at coping with things, you'll be in a more positive mindset, and that in turn will make you feel like you're hurting ppl less, and then that'll lessen your desire to hurt yourself, and it'll keep getting better. It's hard, but I guess the first thing you gotta do if you wanna stop is to try to forgive yourself and accept the past for what it is. If you're close with your mother (and if you feel like you're ready) maybe you can tell her and tlk to her about it. If not then just leave that part out.
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