First of all, well done on stopping. The desparation you're feeling right now is actually a positive (sorry, I know that's a lot easier for me to say than you to believe - if you were saying it to me I'd feel like decking you!) because it's the first step towards feeling better.
Can you get some professional help? Whatever the reasons for starting smoking, they probably still exist and now there's a whole lot more 'stuff' to work through because of the weed and all the things you haven't dealt with because you smoked the feelings away. Getting the right support would be another step forwards.
It's great that your ex and her family are supportive, but they can't carry the burden of being your sole support. You also mentioned a group of friends? Do they know what you're going through and will they help you find things to do/ways of getting through this that are heathy (i.e. don't repalce weed with alcohol!).
I find keeping busy helps, so anything you can do to have structured time could help. Do you work or study? If not, work (voluntary is great for new experiences and people) and part-time/evening courses are good starting points. Also any hobbies you enjoy (or used to enjoy, or have always wanted to try). I've taken up knitting, which gives me something to focus on when I'm tired and trying to wind down. But whatever works for you. There's a list of distractions somewhere on RYL? Not quite sure where, it's a sticky somewhere I think...
good luck, and well done on taking the first step
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