Thanks, it's actually ok because when I came in I was on the high end of the BMI chart, I'm in here for bulimia so it's ok for me to lose weight.
Thankyou for saying I'm more than a number, it's just that a number has defined me for so so long I dont know any different. That sounds like a cop out, but it's just reality. Believe me, I do want to not be defined by a number I just dont know how to go about it.
Feeling really miserable today and I dont really know why, I just know that I feel like crap and having some really bad thoughts about things I could do to myself. I know that if I SI I will be kicked out, but my ED thinks that's a fantastic idea, and I'm not sure how to fight it.
Going to talk to one of the nurses when she's free, just wish she'd hurry up because I'm really not good. I understand that there are other patients more worthy of her time than me though.
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