Its ok to be terrified. I would be too. Infact i was when my former psych recommended i be put on a 12 month inpatient programme. So i do know how it feels. My advice would be to get family and friends to talk about it too. See what they say. If all around you feel it will benefit then chances are it will do. It could be the best thing to happen to you.
Many programmes allow you home at weekends after a few weeks. Its more a kinda live in theraputic day centre. Its not a prison.
I didnt go in the end. It was decided it would not be right for me. however i still went through the process i described above and got all around to know what was happening and when. there was something reassuring to know those who knew me would support me what ever happened. no one looked or treated me different. they were just simply relieved there was some sort of action available.
Finally its GOOD to hate it. Afterall id be worried if you were looking forward to it! It proves theres still life and fight in you. Use it to fight against the sickness.
I hope what ever is chosen you get the help and support you need. Best of luck
Matthew
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