Hi Kath...to be honest, Im not that good at being open at the doctors...i sit and listen, but dont speak up. so no he probably doesnt know how bad things are. But then he knows about the recent hospital stay and he saw my arm yesterday.
But if they are going to give up on me then i will do it first and give up on them...that way i will show them that i dont have attachment issues and will avoid rejection.
I cant fight this anymore. I was wondering about seeing my therapist again, but theres the issue of the cost and also therapy and homework trigger me into harming, which kind of defeats the object..long story..
Yes I am well pissed off with things as they stand right now and if my arm wasnt already occupied with fresh wounds there would be a few more added tonight
Nothing more to say...just pissed off
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