the battle your fighting will end, it just amy take some time
it seems like you've been trying really hard and that really good =)
i think sometimes things like self destruction are things that are predictable and that we can control, things like life we cant, and this causes us to sometimes fight the things that we know are good for us, i know that sometimes ill purposefully isolate myself when i know im gonna be in danger
have you thought about cbt or something like that? just an idea
if you ever want to chat just pm me *hugs*
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