Thanks Loz and Jess <3
I'm not feeling very strong today. I had some friends from school come in to visit which was good, but I dont understand why I just wanted them to leave, I love them and was really excited about them coming in :|
Since then I've been feeling pretty awful, SI thoughts are out of control and I'm so confused. My ED says "do it so you get kicked out and can come back to me," Ally says "No I need the help". I honestly dont know which one to listen to. I mean logically I do but I'm not thinking very logically right now.
I could talk to the staff and I have told them that I'm not feeling great but I haven't elaborated on it because I honestly dont know why I'm feeling so terrible, I just know that hurts and I'm starting to feel desperate, like I would do anything to make it stop hurting.
I'm scared.
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