I don't see it as weird or strange. It's probably not a thought pattern a non depressed person would use but it's totally understandable when you're feeling low. Sometimes when the world and your mind feel out of control, it can feel very comforting to feel that you might have the ultimate control - that of ending your life and of hopefully escaping the pain.
I've used such thoughts to comfort me a few times in the past when I was very vulnerable and feeling so helpless, alone and angry. The thing is to understand it, explore why you feel that way, and have compassionate understanding for yourself until/while you work at finding a life affirming way of getting through tough times. Such suicidal thoughts are concerning, though, and really do need to be talked through with a member of your treatment team so you can work together to understand and to keep yourself safe.
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