Rowie firstly well done for being so honest with the crisis team and telling them you didnt think you were safe and for going to A and E.i am so so so very proud of you hun.
Please dont give up.Your hubby and these people only want to help you and see you alive and happy like we do.i know it must feel like everyone is working against you right now and i know that must feel really horrible but they are just very concerned for you and they are not working against you but your illness.Please try and let them try and help and i really hope they do more for you later today than just one meeting etc.Cos that would be a disgrace and certainly not enough.You need and deserve so much more than that.And in my opinion i would also not be so sure your not sectionable - however i am not a professional so i am probably wrong but it just does not make sense to me.
i am glad that they were thinking about a place of safety and i hope they are still considering this cos to be honest i think that is really what you need and i am extremely concerned about you especially given the next 24 hours.
As for them telling your hubby i know you didnt want this and im sorry they felt they had to go against this.i do hope he can maybe help you keep safe and to fight somehow though [im selfish but i dont want to see you die] and also that you came to some agreement over your night time meds so you can hopefully get some rest and peace and a bit of a break from it all.
Please let us know how it goes tomorrow if you want to/can, please stay in touch and know you can contact me anytime, that i am thinking of you a lot and love you very much.
Much love.You mean so much to me and so many others and you are worth every bit of effort anyone goes to for you and oh so so so so much more.i truely mean that, believe me.Your a fantastic person Rowie and i just hope that one day you can see that too.Please let people try and help you and i really hope they do the sensible thing and offer you much more support and help.It is what you need and it is only right they should.It is neglectful if they dont.
You have fought to stay alive for so long and come so far - please dont give up.Good luck with your doctor too.i hope he also will ensure your well looked after.Well done for being so brave with all this.
You can do this girl, keep it up!You dont need to die.You can live and be happy.i know that must seem so far off right now but i hope one day you will be able to see that too and will be glad you lived.
Hang on in there.
i love you.
xx xx
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