Hey, I'm sorry I've not been around. Was away for the week.
I'm really glad that you are seeing the counsellor. It is hugely draining. I know that from my family therapy (incidentally, is family therapy an option? It can be really helpful to all sit down and talk your fears through together like that).
Would you be able to email him while you are at Uni perhaps?
I know why you feel guilty going back to Uni. But your mum doesn't want you to put your life on hold, just because hers is uncertain at the moment. And it might help you sometimes to be a distance away from everything.
But I also think you do need support whilst you are there.
I know when my mum died college felt really strange, because you look at people who think that failing an exam, or splitting up with their boyfriend is the end of the world and think "you have no idea what real problems and difficulties are like".
You have been through more than many others your age. And that can be isolating. But also remember that it does make you stronger. You know the important things in life,family, love, life and that is a valuable lesson, even though we usually have to go through something horrible to realise it.
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