Today, I feel like a complete and utter failure.
I caved and ate a sandwich. Just one, and I'm freaking out.
It just seems so wrong. I want to be thin. Putting food in my system just goes against anything that I want.
I know this is stupid, and I just wish I could snap myself out of this. But I know I'm getting worse. I've gotten rid of all of the food in my dorm room. Just having it around freaks me out.
I understand that I'm doing irreversible damage. And that terrifies me. I just can't bring myself to eat.
It's pathetic though.
I don't think I've lost a single pound.
I'm so tired of feeling disgusting and huge.
Why can't I just be normal?
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