Feelings of worthlessness and low self-esteem are often symptoms of clinical depression. Have you been feeling low in general? Are you losing interest in things you used to enjoy? Problems with concentration? Lack of energy? Changes in appetite? Any thoughts about harming yourself? If the answer to any of those is 'yes', and it's been going on for a while, you definitely should see a doctor.
Often self-bullying comes from deep-seated guilt and feelings of not being worthy of being happy, and therapy is the best way to figure out what caused it for you. But even if you aren't sure what made you feel this way, the important thing is that it's a very self-destructive pattern of behaviour and thinking. Acknowledging it is a great first step. Try to be more aware of when you're putting yourself down, and when you do catch yourself doing it, try writing down the negative thoughts about yourself. Then imagine that somebody you loved was feeling that way about themselves, what would you say to them? Practice telling yourself that you deserve happiness and compliments. Practice complimenting yourself. When you feel yourself focusing on the negative things about yourself, make a list of things that you like about yourself. Even if you can't think of anything at first, keep trying until you have a few.
These things take time, and you don't get over low self-esteem overnight, but gradually practicing being kind to yourself will make a big difference in the long term.
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