RYUU

i have poor self esteem when anyone says something nice about me i have to put my self down or once i get self esteem i seem to shatter it by calling my self names like fat and ugly my husband is getting frustrated at me for doing this but i cant help it i feel so bad about myself all the time
i feel that any praise that should give myself i see as being big headed and vain of me doing it
how do i stop myself from doing this and how to give myself more self esteem