Haven't drunk for a little while. i miss it when i don't drink.
i know it'll make things worse if i continue to drink. And that i should be careful.
i just really struggle to actually care at the moment. Sorry i know it's horrible and stupid when someone asks something and then ignores what you say. i just don't care anymore. i want to drink. i want to die.
i'm so stupid actually. Because i know how much worse alcohol makes me feel / will make me feel and yet i'm still sooo tempted.
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