I believe it was a mix of a suicide attempt and self harm.
I guess she was thinking 'I want to harm myself really badly and need a lot of treatment and if I die in the process I dont give a shit'.
Though until I can talk to her, I dont know. And it sort of depends on how she feels once its over and she's recovered as to if she needs to stay in hospital or go to the psychiatric ward. If shes really angry it hasnt killed her then Id say it was more of a suicide attempt, and she probably needs to stay in for a while.
I am absolutely dreading going to bed. My heart is racing, I have palpitations, I know its mostly to do with anxiety that its come on this bad, but argh! What the hell am I gonna dream about?! [I usually dream about things along the same theme as what is going on in my life or has come up in coversation, and there is nothing nice about today and what I've seen and heard!]
Thankyou so much for your offer of support and your pair of ears. I cant thank people enough right now, and the people at the hospital have been amazing.
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