Thank-you, I really needed to hear that. It helps sometimes just to acknowledge that it's ok to be scared I think.
I went to the cinema with my best friend and her son today [well, yesterday now] (Tinkerbelle and the Great Fairy Rescue haha). It was actually the best therapy ever, little kids are great sometimes, I laughed so much. He's so sociable and he's more confident with me now, so he was chatting loads and he tried to lick my face at one point (who knows why!). It was so nice to just be silly and have fun.
On the downside I was really quiet and sad for a lot of the evening. But I think that's partly just tiredness making it worse, because it was a good day and I didn't think too much.
The hospice who are helping my mum are advertising for a few jobs atm, and I'm considering applying because I need some part-time work. My best friend doesn't think it's a good idea because of possible future - her aunt died and her mum is really struggling with it because she's a nurse working in the same area. I'm not really sure whether to apply or not 'cos on the one hand, if and when we need them it will not be nice, but on the other hand, money is money.
But hey, lots of time to make decisions I guess.
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