I know that she's depressed (which, haha, she blames on me) but honestly, everything else she claims that is wrong with her isn't.
And, hey. I'm depressed too. But I don't feel the need to constantly bring everyone else down. She loves to use it as an excuse and she also believes, no one has it worse off than her. It's the most frustrating thing ever.
And I don't think it's fair that she gets to use her 'depression' as an excuse. I'll tell my friends, 'oh, my mom said this to me' or 'oh, my mom called me this' and always it's "well, she's depressed. she can't help it. it's how she is"
No. That's not how things are supposed to work here. It's just emotionally exhausting. I can never do anything right. And it's tough being told time & again by your own mother, that you basically just suck at life.
How am I supposed to go through life feeling confident about myself, when I'm constantly told by her that I'm awful, ugly & will never amount to anything.
You know? Ugh.
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