[gemzywemz]

I have been reading up on eating disorders and inparticular anorexia since my diagnosis and have been reading about the many possible causes for the disorder. Obviously its different for each individual but I have started to question why I am like this and what the reasons are behind it. For me, and I am guessing this is the case for many others too, its not really about food. Im not even 100% sure its about weight and self image. But im getting myself really confused and sometimes aggitated trying to figure it out in my head. Sometimes it feels it will burst and sometimes I feel like maybe im just clutching at straws and looking at things in the complete wrong way.

Can anyone else relate to these feelings and thoughts? Do many of you know the reasons why you have your eating disorder? I do feel that this would be a big part in recovery, because until I know exactly why I have the disorder, and why I am desperatly clinging on to it, I cannot really begin to tackle it.