Its two weeks now. I actually only just realised - mainly becasue I've had a very triggered two days. However mainly it has been mot in self harming, but in the whole eating disorder department. To the point where Im seriosuly considering attempting a return to anorexia. Its gotten qwuite bad...
But hey, atleast I'm still continueing with my self harm recovery, though I guess a return of my ED would jeperdise it...I don't know, I'm rather ****ed up with the whole thing I guess.
Today was a bit horrible as well. Was randomly in a shop (for tip sharinbg reasons I wont say which one) and discovered that they have packs of proper "old school" shaving razors - and ****ing hell I was so tempted to buy them, I'd wanted to find them so badly back in my SI days and how ironic. I find them when Im trying to recover.
I'm not particulary happy, If it wasn't for my boyfriend I would have already thrown in the towel.
I know I'll hurt him soo much if I give it all up.
2 weeks....woo.
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