You don't want to hear this, but you need to stop taking the laxatives. You're not going to find anyone on this site who will give you advice or share tips to assist and fuel your eating disordered behaviours.
If you can't stop taking the laxatives cold turkey because of the physical effects of withdrawl, then you need to taper down the number you're taking over a period of a few days or weeks to wean your body off them. It will be uncomfortable at first, you'll feel temporarily very bloated and constipated, but the body does adapt again. Laxative abuse is very dangerous and the longer it goes on, the greater the risk of permanent damage. I'm sure you don't want a colostomy bag, being thin can't possibly be worth that cost. You're also putting your life at risk due to electrolyte imbalances and dehydration, you will permanently damage your heart and other organs.
Why do you feel so strongly that losing weight is worth all the of the risks and pain associated with an eating disorder? Have you got any support in real life?
Take care of yourself,
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