[Foxeh]

I feel so out of control and anxious right now. Nothing seems to make much sense and I just feel like I'm in the middle of a big whirl of new job, crappy uni, mood swings and unrest.
I just feel so worried about everything and I can't stop no matter what I do.
I wanted to harm yesterday but there is nowhere I can do it anymore. I've even lost control over that.
I feel trapped and alone.

I've just tried to talk to Mother about it but...she didn't really understand.

I just feel so awful.