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[LittleMonster] · 03-08-2010, 11:06 PM

Sorry to make YET another thread but this has been playing on my mind
Basically my bf & I are going to university this September/October and were going to be just 45minutes away from one another, however he hated the uni he was going to go to when he looked around so now he's going to be 3hours away.

It may sound selfish but I'm really depressed just thinking about it, he is the only person who I can talk to in the evening to help me through it & the one person I see when I feel down & is always there for me. He is the only person I can talk to about my ED/depression & distracts me when I want to

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& yeah he's great.

BUT he leaves for university 2/3 weeks before me & I won't have anyone to go & see or talk too. He says he will be worried about me during his weeks at university but I can't be selfish and allow him to ruin his university experience because of me. I have a feeling that whilst he goes before me I will just be sat miserably

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. I don't enjoy clubbing with my friends because I'm too depressed, my family aren't supportive as they dont know nor does my dad really care..

I'm just so down about going, I really do not want to go.
I'm worried that I won't care for myself at uni, I will spiral with my ED & binge/purge often cos I will have my own bathroom..

I just don't know what to do.
I'm waiting for an ED assessment but that's not until 9th September, *sigh* I really shouldn't have discharged myself.

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I feel so pathetic. Others have worse problems I'm sure
Sorry for being a waste of space & air.

03-08-2010, 11:06 PM	#1
[LittleMonster] Kate. Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: UK I am currently:	University & Boyfriend Sorry to make YET another thread but this has been playing on my mind Basically my bf & I are going to university this September/October and were going to be just 45minutes away from one another, however he hated the uni he was going to go to when he looked around so now he's going to be 3hours away. It may sound selfish but I'm really depressed just thinking about it, he is the only person who I can talk to in the evening to help me through it & the one person I see when I feel down & is always there for me. He is the only person I can talk to about my ED/depression & distracts me when I want to The following content has been hidden - Reason : triggers SI/suicide binge/purge,cut,OD & yeah he's great. BUT he leaves for university 2/3 weeks before me & I won't have anyone to go & see or talk too. He says he will be worried about me during his weeks at university but I can't be selfish and allow him to ruin his university experience because of me. I have a feeling that whilst he goes before me I will just be sat miserably The following content has been hidden - Reason : triggers SI/Suicide/Substance Abuse b/p'ing, cutting myself, drinking lots of alcohol & feeling suicidal . I don't enjoy clubbing with my friends because I'm too depressed, my family aren't supportive as they dont know nor does my dad really care.. I'm just so down about going, I really do not want to go. I'm worried that I won't care for myself at uni, I will spiral with my ED & binge/purge often cos I will have my own bathroom.. I just don't know what to do. I'm waiting for an ED assessment but that's not until 9th September, sigh I really shouldn't have discharged myself. The following content has been hidden - Reason : triggers SI/suicide I keep wanting to hurt myself badly so I have to stay in hospital for a while as Im that worried & depressed. I need to see a psychiatrist, I've never been this depressed I feel so pathetic. Others have worse problems I'm sure Sorry for being a waste of space & air.