Not until i started my volunteer work last year did anyone ever say the word breakdown to me. the butcher asked if i had a nervous breakdown and i immediately said no. I came home really upset and looked it up on titnternet. I found there is no actual diagnoses. Its more a term used O_0.
Anyways since then its been fired around at me more than once and ive now found myself using it as i feel less stigmatized by it now.
For me it was basically when my world stopped. Life as i once knew it and experienced it ended! I ceased to function on a physical and emotional level. Chronic depression and anxiety set in. For the first 6 months i couldnt do a thing. I couldnt open mail or answer the phone. I couldnt pay bills or look after my own affairs. I wasnt washing or cleaning or anything really. I was simply living a life of minimal subsistance.
It has only been during recovery and subsequent rehabilitation that i now realise i had completely broken down. It scares/scared the **** out of me.
5 years of my life totally gone! I really hope i get it back!!!!
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