Hiding - I'm sorry you had such a bad experience when DID first surfaced for you. At least you have the support of this forum - and know that the judging you says more about them as people than it does about you. I'm not really a believer that you can make something like that up on an unconscious level - if it's unconscious for you, it's not a decision or an act, as such - it has to be an integral part of you, something in your psyche that is triggering it and beyond your control.
It may be that DID forums seems to pass it on as an illness - but I'd think it's more because the type of people that frequent these sorts of forums are more prone to mental health issues (hence why the interest), or problems which are comorbid with DID and the discussion possibly opens previously suppressed channels in the mind, through no choice of their own.
I hope that makes sense, anyway :-/
I'm probably never going to be much help, not having a great understanding, but if you ever need a friendly ear, feel free to PM me :)
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