[donovan216]

hi im new here but have been going through so much it all started when i lost my grandma on december 15 this year ever since everything has slowly been going downhill for me i lost my job of 2 years in march then april i met a wonderful girl who was 5 years older then me and showed me what it was like to be respected and treated like an actual person then after 3 months of dating/talking i slipped and told her i loved her and then a couple weeks later she stopped talking to me and she told me she felt i was rushing her into a relationship even though she didnt tell me what was wrong and i still cant get over her to this day and i defended my feelings against many of my friends for telling me im dumb for liking her so much or she is one of those girls who just wants attention not a relationship and she meant alot more to me and because of that i have lost alot of friends and caused alot of drama because i felt like i was getting attacked and cornered for how i felt about her and i snapped and said alot of things i didnt mean but a person can only handle so much and it hurts to lose so many people over one little thing and now everyone thinks i need to be in a mental hospital because im so depressed over losing her i just dont know what to do anymore im literally at the end of my rope cause i cant find a job i almost lost my car 2 days ago and im so stressed trying to fix things with my friends cause they were all i had and i need that in my life