I don't think I can just not buy new blades because I couldn't sleep last night until I'd figured out exactly when I could buy new blades and assured myself that I would, and also because it's been nagging at the back of my mind all day, even in class, and I need to be able to concentrate on other things. But I can sometimes buy blades and not use them right away, especially if I can find exactly the same kind I had before (which shouldn't be hard), it's just that I already want to cut because I'm angry at myself for forgetting my blades and I'm worried that my mom will find them sometime in the next eight weeks and stuff, and with classes starting and everything, I'm going to be more stressed and everything, and I don't know. It's just that since I couldn't cut right when I wanted too and I've had to take all this time to think about it, it seems like I should be able to avoid doing it this time, only it's been over 12 hours since I discovered I didn't have my blades, and I still want to cut, and it's only two more hours until I can go buy blades, and I know that I'll do it right away because if I leave it then I won't have time before my last class and then the store will be closed after that, and I'd have to wait until tomorrow, and I can't do that.
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